My life is busy. Anyone that knows me will tell you the same and call that an understatement. There are a bazillion things I love to do and I try to fit them all in, plus the things that are good for me, plus there’s all the things about my Spirituality that call me and a job that is amazingly demanding and it all needs to get crammed in there somewhere. Actually my body and the healers I work with say it doesn’t and that I need to slow down because I’m actually hurting myself at this point. But I digress….(Yes, I’m trying to slow down. Really…I promise…stop nagging…)
One thing that I try to keep in mind when I’m busy is fairness in dealing with everyone. Fair exchange of energy, fair treatment, encouragement and appreciation where it’s due, boundaries and positive feedback where necessary, and above all be ethical and true to myself and everyone else. I’m not a saint by any means, I get frustrated and I have been known to indulge in gossip on occasion, but I do try. And when I fail I try to fix it. So when others don’t act that way, it really disappoints me. Like at work when someone has done a fantastic job and not only do they get no credit, but they get passed over for a new title or a promotion while someone who is going through the motions and causing damage gets a raise. Like wanting an opportunity to do something and finding out that other people don’t want you to be able to do it so they’ve taken actions to make sure you won’t be allowed.
It’s disappointing to find that people would act that way. That they think it’s ok to be that way and to hurt others for their own benefit. It’s hard to take the long view and rise above it when your heart is hurting and all you want to do is say “F__k it!” and walk out the door. Being in your emotions is hard and even harder is not acting on the desire to make a knee jerk reaction in order to stop the pain. First of all it won’t, second of all it will make things worse, and thirdly, it won’t resolve anything. Being in the emotion is not glamorous. It’s just disappointing.