Doing Akashic readings is a joy to me and endlessly fascinating.  Every person is different, every story and direction is unique and where the go and how they choose to get there can be amazing and inspiring.  I especially like it when my client has done all the heavy lifting in this life and gets to relax and play and enjoy themselves for the rest of their life.  What validation of their hard work and also what bliss in knowing that the universe supports them for all they’ve done and who they are.  Because the manifesting and abundance doesn’t stop once you are done with your service work, that’s just the beginning.  🙂

Some of the difficult readings come when a client’s soul book talks about healing that they need to do.  Not so much in acknowledging that there is something that needs to be healed.  That’s usually a clear and positive validation.  No, it’s when the client has formed their identity around being a ‘survivor’ and has done amazing amounts of healing work already that things get confusing for them.

You see, there are a lot of ways to survive something.  And there are a lot of ways to ‘move on’ from something once it’s happened.  A lot of them include denying or forcefully manipulating the feelings a person has around them.  Forcing forgiveness, loving the negative feelings into submission, forming the identity around constant grief and depression, creating a persona of ‘always broken but I can deal’…The thing is, that’s surviving, it’s not thriving, and it certainly isn’t healed.  And the Akashics is like a magnet when it comes to unhealed issues.  That’s what it prioritizes as #1 to communicate about first.

smart-teenagers.comSo here’s the thing.  If you are constantly pumping energy into ‘loving something’ into another state of being, you’re on a hamster wheel.  The feelings need to be acknowledged if not expressed in order to move.  Loving them into being something else is like trying to force a teenager to do something they don’t want to do.  They may act like they are doing it to your face, but behind your back they are acting out and also storing up rage at being dissed and the explosion is coming at some later date.  Building an identity around woundedness just embeds the toxicness into yourself continuing the damage until you heal.  So instead of trying to cope, I read their book for what they need to do to actually heal.

The hard part is that it means they have to feel what they feel.  Seems simple but grieving is not a pleasant or comfortable process. Neither is actual rage.  Nor is guilt.  Just to name a few.  And they are not particularly controllable.  That’s the nature of emotions.  Our actions concerning them certainly are, but not the feelings themselves.  They come when they want, they leave when they are ready and there’s not much of anything we can do about it.  However, like spring storms, they are not meant to stay.  They naturally come and go.  The trick is to be present with them.  Like a person, they crave acknowledgement.  Once seen and experienced, they leave.  Which allows for the next and the next, which allows for healing.

So if you are working with the Akashics, talking with friends, meeting a doctor or a therapist, and realize that for the umteenth time you are explaining why you are ‘x/y/z’ physically because of ‘_____’ but that’s all behind you, make a note.  It’s not behind you.  It’s right there.  A teenager that is one again trying to get your attention.  It takes courage to hear the truth, but it’s worth listening.